As Charles, my son drove toward my home, I thought to myself, I’m finally free, I’m headed to the comfort of home.

As we approached the house I became a little apprehensive, how am I gonna get in the house? My front porch has 4 steep steps with no railings. The garage entry has 5 steps with one railing. No question about it, the garage entry it would be.

Chuck pulled halfway into the garage and retrieved my walker. He assisted me into the door, with a little finagling. Chuck would be with me for 3 more days, what would I do after he left? The other half of me said “don’t worry about it, live in the here and now, welcome home.”

My daughter Erin stops by daly to help out as well. At least I know if something happened to me my children would be there to take care of me.

I am in a soft left leg cast with no weight bearing, that meant assistance with all tasks of daily living, including toileting. I had to process that, I was very grateful to have my children support and take care of me. However on the other hand, I couldn’t help but come to the realization, one day I would be the child.

I understood why my Father or uncles chose not to come live with me as they aged. The thought of giving up my independence at some point in my life was unnerving.

To be dependent on someone else means you lose control of your life. Giving up control has been a life long struggle for me, yet deep inside I am aware it may have to happen.

I have been comfortable with very little pain. I have a follow up appointment with the surgeon tomorrow. I expect that he will place me in a boot which would allow me to ambulate.

I thank all of you who called, sent messages, and cards. It meant so much to know I am loved so much.

In conclusion, I have decided I will listen to the half of me that says “ live for today, the here and now. Enjoy your life !!!”

Until next time,

Peace, Love, and Blessings ❤️‍🩹